My poor, sweet boy ...

It is with an extremely heavy heart that I write this post about our beloved Mr. Gray. After keeping him completely separated from our other fur babies for the past three days after we brought him inside, we took him to our vet this morning for his dreaded FeLeuk test. (I HATE THEM so much!) Sadly, we were told that he was "slightly positive." Whatever the hell that is supposed to mean? Tabitha, by the way who shared the very same food dish as him for months, had tested negative when we took her? Our vet told us that it means that there is still a slight possibility that he can fight it off, or perhaps it is merely in its' beginning stages. There is no real way of knowing for sure. Either way, my heart breaks for him ...and us.

So what next now? Well, we are supposed to take him back to the vet in another month for yet another (albeit most likely disappointing) test. If still positive, we will have no choice but to totally resign ourselves to his horrible inevitable fate and the only thing we can do is make him as happy and comfortable as possible until his time. I have personally seen what this  Godforsaken terrible disease does as many, many years ago when I was a teenager, my parents found a beautiful 6-month old kitten I named Whiskers.. We only had dogs at the time, so we had absolutely no experience with this kind of thing what-so-ever. One night, Whiskers got very ill. I remember she was in such a daze staring at her water bowl and she couldn't control her bladder. We immediately took her to the vet. They tested her and told us she had FeLeuk. We were told that we put her into remission and at that point the only thing we could do is put her down. Trust me, this is something I will never forget!

 

As for our other cats, as I already mentioned, they have not been exposed to him at all and we have chosen to take them to the vet regardless this Monday and Tuesday for their preventative FeLeuk shots. Mr. Gray was also given his worm pill, and regular vaccinations. We are even treating ALL of our cats as well as him for fleas since flea dirt was found on his body.

I have given the outside cat house which I bought for him to my mother on Thanksgiving as he will no longer need it and she mentioned she would love to have something like it for her inside/outside kitty cat.

 

The only thing I can say for sure is that if and when the worst happens, he will die extremely loved and cared for, which is a lot more than I can say about so many other unfortunate cats out there. I am asking a big favor of everyone to please send as much positive healing energy to Mr. Gray as possible. It would be greatly appreciated, my dear friends.